April 11, 2013
Do you know the first thing I thought when I laid eyes on you? Among many including:
*THAT just came out of ME?!
*What's wrong with her head?
*Is this what love at first sight is all about??
One stuck out above the rest: She's perfect!
Yes, I saw a precious baby with all her appendages, with tiny fingers and toes, and the most adorable nose. What I didn't see was a failing pyloris in your abdomen. I didn't see "failure to thrive" on a future doctor's chart. I didn't know you would need glasses for imperfect eye sight in second grade. And I NEVER saw coming a diagnosis of scoliosis in your future.
All I saw was beauty. God's abundant blessing in a 6 lb. 11 oz. package. I saw a baby girl who loved her mama. One who popped off my nursing breast at 10 months old and looked into my eyes to pronounce the sweetest word I had ever heard: "mama!" as she smiled.
It was 12 years ago in the wee hours of the morning when you woke me from sleep to send me racing to a hospital in northwest Oklahoma City in a thunderstorm. (too many prepositions in that sentence? Oh well.) I remember thinking that if we made it to the hospital without hydroplaning and being killed, the pain was surely going to crush me. I had expected labor to have some pain, just NOT the level I was experiencing. And frankly, since you were due to be induced 2 days later, I thought I would get drugs. I was dying.... surely.
I remember getting settled into the bed and being checked for dilation: 5 cm. Perfect! Bring on the epidural! But as we waited a few minutes I told the nurse I needed to poop, could I run to the bathroom?
WHAT? she said. There's no way! So she reached inside and yelled to everyone in the room: Oh my gosh! She's at a 10!! Get the doctor!! FAST!
And then after some hard pushing, realizing you were flipped upside down and twisting you over (oh yeah, that's a special kind of hell right there), out you came. It took 2 hours and 20 minutes from start to finish. You were 10 days early. And you were perfect.
What I want you to know, sweet thing, is life is NOT perfect. In fact, God warns us that life is hard. As you enter these important years of your life I offer you some advise. Some of it is cliche, but it's good advice.
1. Choose your friends wisely. Peer pressure can be positive OR negative.
2. Your family and your home are your safe place. Always.
3. Boys will come and go but your friends will always be there. Don't ignore them over a boy.
4. Stay true to your own personality. Any friend you have to change for is not really your friend.
5. There is nothing you could ever do to make me love you less.
6. Be strong. Be a leader among your peers.
7. You were made for greatness. I will always help you get there!
8. Jesus loves you, this I know. Keep your eyes on Him!
I love you sister. You're my favorite first born child and the best daughter a mama could ask for. I will always love you most.